Tuesday, March 21, 2017

Charlotte & Her Pearl-Studded Collar

Another "yearbook series" portrait in this toned tan sketchbook I'm currently working in: Mrs. Charlotte Cooper, Supervising Teacher, First Grade. I love Charlotte's style; she has on a rather fancy pair of horn-rimmed glasses, pearl earrings, and my favorite, her extravagant blouse! No mere string of pearls for Charlotte...oh no! She shows up for picture day in her finest pearl-studded collar! She looks quietly feisty - calm but fierce when necessary - so I gave her red hair to match her personality. These vintage black and white photos allow for a lot of interpretation and imagination, both in image and backstory.

Friday, March 17, 2017

Spot Color Portrait Experiment

I have no fixed, predetermined goal, theme, technique or style when drawing all these portraits. I simply pick a photo that speaks to me and after only the slightest bit of contemplation, I jump in. I'm trying a bit of everything and in the process, I have discovered some new favorite ways of drawing a portrait that I want to practice more. I really loved the value study of Dr. Chester Collins and intend to do additional portraits in that style. Today's drawing is another of my new favorite techniques: an calligraphic ink drawing combined with spot color application.


This time around, I used an old photo I unearthed in a thrift store. I have no idea who this person is but I like the strong shadows, the composition, and the untold story. This lady is all dressed up and seems poised on the edge of going somewhere and she has been captured on film right before embarking on her adventure. After the initial contour sketch in permanent ink, I decided to use spot color on just her skin, leaving the tone of the sketch paper alone in place of coloring her dress. To differentiate the background from her clothes, I added some scribbled pencil highlights behind her. As slow and soothing as it was to draw Dr. Collins, this portrait was quick and energetic. I put on some upbeat music and worked as fast as I could, applying color and marks.

Responding to a Reader Question:

Dear reader, Özge, who hails from Izmir, Turkey, inquired about an idea I had a while back to take my yearbook portraits to canvas in greyscale with a monster twist (as seen here.) Since I'm not sure if anyone checks back to the comments to read reply threads, I thought I'd just reply in a regular post. Full confession: I absolutely lost my nerve with that idea. I also couldn't make those paintings jive with the assemblage characters I did, so I shelved the monster mugshots until a later date (maybe this coming October??) It also occurs to me that I never blogged about how that last show turned out...a bit of a tale and I'll try to remember to post about it soon.

Society 6 Sale Heads-Up:

My deepest gratitude goes out to everyone who visited my Society 6 shop recently! I hope that those of you who ordered pencil pouches have received them and love them! (Shout out to Ellie who let me know her order arrived!) I think it is best to order from Society 6 when you can snag free shipping and maybe even a little bit off your order so here's a heads up that it is that time again: Free shipping Friday March 17 (beginning 12 am PST) and ending Sunday March 19 at midnight PST. In addition, you can get 25% off all pillows.

Wednesday, March 15, 2017

How to Live

Switching gears briefly back to art journaling: this is my latest spread in my mini "Unexpected Convergences" journal. I am intently focused on drawing and painting these days but here and there, I pop into any one of the many journal projects on my shelves and play around a bit with mark-making and collage.

At the end of this week, I hope to make some big moves forward on a particular health concern; I am finally having an appointment with a specialist who is qualified to make decisions/perform procedures that could resolve the problem or in the least, provide some answers. I am nervous but staying very busy so I don't have too much time to worry or play the "what if" game. I am so happy to have teaching and my art practice as most excellent distractions.

Monday, March 13, 2017

Achromatic Portrait Play

Next up in my ongoing yearbook-inspired portrait project: Dr. Chester Collins. It took me a few days to get to know the good doctor's face; I spent a lot of time studying his photo and trying to recreate the planes of his intriguing visage in my toned paper sketchbook. In the initial sketch, I ended up changing the tilt of his head and eyes just slightly; he's looking much more directly out of the frame than in his yearbook photo. He reminds me of a few actors in the original Twilight Zone and I love the angles that are somehow soft and welcoming rather than aloof. I think you can see the resemblance between the original photo and my rendering but also that there is enough difference to suggest a completely different person.

Working from black and white photos - especially if you do it often - is a fantastic way to familiarize yourself with what parts of the face are bright and those that fall into shadow. Values - the range of light to dark - are most apparent in these old photos and it becomes just a matter of taking time to truly see those values and slowly build the highlights and lowlights into your drawing. Colored pencils allow for patient, deliberate layering of color so that was my choice of mediums. It is also worth noting that I didn't use a black ink line to detail the face and features before beginning the coloring process. I wanted this to be a soft, realistic, value-dominated portrait and a strong contour line would have flattened and "cartoonized" the image. Once I got all the values in place, I added the slightest bit of color into the doctor's eyes. I have no idea what his eye color was in real life; vintage photos allow for a great deal of creative interpretation. I hope that hint of color brings the viewer right into the center of Chester's face and adds a touch of humanity and life to this mostly achromatic portrait.

Thursday, March 9, 2017

Yearbook Photos Call to Me Once Again

Behind the scenes here at Lost Coast Post, life continues to roil with uncertainty and anxiety and lots of waiting...forever waiting it seems. I am finding solace in good, old-fashioned drawing and painting. There is something about the simplicity of supplies and technique that is soothing and absorbing. Mixed media often requires so much preliminary hunting & gathering that I am exhausted and uninspired by the time I actually sit down to create something. On the other hand, the colored pencils are ready to go, right at my table; all I need do is grab a sketchbook, maybe a reference photo, and get to work.

I have begun experimenting with toned paper; all the portraits in this post are created in a spiral-bound Strathmore Toned Tan sketchbook. The paper isn't as heavy as I usually prefer but I remind myself that I am just playing around and try to overlook the slight warp that occurs when I use wet media. And in truth, a short time under a few heavy books is all that's needed to flatten the pages back out again.

Toned paper is lovely in that it allows you to begin in the middle of values. Instead of starting with a stark white background and having to save the highlights and build endlessly up to the dark values, toned paper (in various shades of tan and gray) gives you a head start. I add layers of white to build into the lightest values and conversely, build up my dark values from the middle tone provided by the paper.

In this sketchbook, I am just fooling around with a wide variety of portrait techniques: scribbled pencil, pen & ink (water-soluble or not,) quickie renderings and characters more carefully developed. As I share these drawings, you'll note lots of out-of-proportion features; I seem to have particular difficulty with chins and if teeth are showing....well, things can get a bit awkward. I love them all. I used to be so uptight about drawing people but since I've been working from vintage yearbook photos, I have fallen deeply in love with my portraits and I embrace every crooked tooth and uneven eyeball. You can see more of my yearbook portrait work here, here, and here. Looking through my posts, I can see that this is a subject that is withstanding the test of time. I can also see that whenever I am feeling at loose ends - creatively or physically - these characters from the past are on standby, waiting patiently for their day in the studio and their debut in my art.

Note: I used a photo found on Pinterest for that first drawing of a cute blonde with purple glasses and while I like her, she just doesn't have the same appeal to me as the drawings done from old yearbooks. I think those old black and white pictures allow for much more interpretation and creativity than modern photos. I get to pick the skin tone, patterning and coloring of the clothes, and I feel more inspired to modify hairstyles, poses, and facial features. After I completed that first drawing, I went back to my voluminous stack of yearbook photos and felt back at home with old friends almost immediately.

Sunday, March 5, 2017

Soul Stories: When Life Gives You Lemons

Life has been bowling a lot of lemons at me lately so I thought it would be apropos to post this spread from my Soul Stories journal. It is from 2009 but still utterly relevant. This was one of those journal entries that came together quite serendipitously; I remember wanting to answer a question posed in a pain management class I attended ("What positive thing has chronic pain brought to your life?") and within a day or two of beginning work on the pages, I discovered the magazine page featuring a murderous giant lemon in a doctor's office reading material. Suffice to say I nicked that ad immediately for use in my journal. It helps to maintain a sense of humor when dodging life's lemons.

Wednesday, March 1, 2017

Lost Coast Post Society 6 Shop Now Open!

This is something I've wanted to do for a very long time but I needed to have the right equipment to do it: open a Society 6 shop so I could offer my art on clothes, home decor, and other goodies. Now that I have a camera good enough to take the high resolution photos needed for printing, I am taking the leap.

For those of you who might not know, Society 6 is a company that allows artists to offer on-demand printing of their art. Society 6 does the printing, billing, & shipping, takes their cut for that work, and then I get a bit of money per item sold. I decided to begin slowly with one piece of art at a time on a few things including my absolute favorite - pouches!

In all honesty, these canvas pouches are really my primary reason for opening a Society 6 storefront; I had read good things about the quality of these pouches. I am somewhat of a "pencil pouch-o-holic" so the idea of having my art made into such a fun and useful object was very exciting. I uploaded art and then ordered one for myself to see how it would turn out. I am so pleased! Sturdy and neat construction, three size options (the medium size pouch is pictured,) and excellent printing. 

And bonus! Starting today (March 1, 2017) and running through Saturday March 4 (11:59 pm PST,) you can get free shipping on everything + 20% off pouches! (Clothing, totes, & phone cases too but I don't have any of that stuff yet in my particular shop.) Society 6 offers this type of deal periodically so I'll keep you up-to-date on any sales that are running and any new art I upload. For now, you find my mixed media owl piece, "By the Light of the Moon," in my shop available on select items. (Some products require gigantic and/or specifically-shaped photos so I am starting out with what I can do with the camera/computer/editing program I have right now.) If this seems like a worthwhile way to generate a bit of income from my art, I'll expand my offerings. Seriously though, getting my art officially printed on a pencil pouch is something I'm checking off my "art bucket list!"

Tuesday, February 21, 2017

Stormy Weather

Art-making (and life in general) is moving very slowly these days for a variety of reasons. I'm still trying to get back into the flow of work after nearly two and a half months off and I have a tremendous amount of work to do for the next semester of teaching. The weather is also contributing to my internal "dragging" feeling; we've had day after day of grey skies, high winds, and flood-threatening downpours here on the Pacific coast of California and after a while, it feels like my mind is wrapped in an irritating, itchy, and damp wool blanket. *ugh*

Unfortunately, this feeling of "slowness" is coming at a time when I actually need to do more. There is a good possibility that I'll be having another major foot surgery this coming June or July. My next show is due up on the wall in October. Since my usual summer show preparation will be supplanted by post-op recovery, I need to get the work for that show done now. These two opposing forces - the urge to move quickly versus the feeling of inertia - are battling it out in my brain. In the interest of shaking loose my momentum and inspiration, I've been painting in my journal as a precursor to on-canvas work. Typically, I never make painted studies before I commit to canvas. I often do preliminary sketches but I don't make fully-realized paintings in advance of the "final draft." However, desperate times call for desperate measures. I have a fairly solid notion of the theme of this upcoming show but the details (individual series, techniques, subjects) still need refinement. This little portrait is in my small Unexpected Convergences journal. That is also unusual for me; my show prep notes and sketches usually have their own separate notebook but here, I just wanted to get my brushes moving while I had any semblance of interest in painting.

Fallow times in the studio happen. Just as it storms without, it can storm within. For myself, I find that it's best to work as much as possible at the edges of the tempest rather than waiting for perfectly calm days. A swish of the brush here, a swipe of paint there and soon you're back in the studio and making art no matter the weather.

Tuesday, February 7, 2017

10 Ways to Do Art When You Don't Feel Like Doing Art

There are a great many things in my life that can get in the way of art-making. My hands are often shaky, weak, and painful (Parkinson's/Kienbock's.) Sometimes migraines make it impossible to tolerate light, sound, or movement. After surgeries (I've had 12 so far,) I have to spend a great deal of time with the wounded limb elevated, making it difficult to sit at my studio table (plantar fibromatosis/Kienbock's.) I deal with extreme fatigue, a consequence of all these health issues combined. To be honest, there are days when these problems do curtail my art life but mostly, I fight through and find ways to make art anyway because art makes my life worthwhile. Art fills my days with joy, excitement, and contentment so whenever possible, I try to find small ways to stay connected with my artistic life regardless of how I feel. This post lists some of my strategies for continuing to make art even when art is the last thing I feel like doing.


1) A Work of Art Doesn't Have to be Monumental:
While laid up after my most recent surgery, I made tiny (1-inch square!) drawings of everything I could see from the couch. I drew the frames in my sketchbook before the surgery and completed all the thumbnails over a period of several days. Thumbnail drawings are a fantastic way to practice composition and observation skills. They can be precursors to larger works when you are feeling more adventurous or thumbnails can just be an aimless but soothing "pencil-scratching-on-paper" distraction when you can't do anything else.


2) Sticky Fingers Can Soothe a Worried Mind:
I am slowly smothering in paper scraps (like many of you, I'll bet) so when I'm not feeling creative, I just spend time creating scrap paper backgrounds in my journals. I grab one of my many scrap boxes, a foam brush, glue, and journal. These backgrounds will wait patiently for a day when I am ready for a longer, more involved studio session. You could make scrap backgrounds in different color ways or use only certain materials such as vintage book papers.


3) Look To Your Library:
How many of you have waited excitedly for the latest book release, danced around your studio once that book was delivered, flipped through its pages, maybe even marking some pages to return to, and then tucked away all that incredible inspiration on the shelf, ultimately forgetting you own that book in the first place? Yep, me too. So, if you are confined to couch or bed, get reacquainted with all those art technique books you own. The things that you found so inspiring all those weeks, months, years (!) ago are still there. Take advantage of forced downtime to unearth lost treasures in your home library.


4) Keep Your Brushes Moving:
If you want to paint but are having trouble settling on a direction or if health issues are keeping you from more in-depth work, pick a few paint colors, grab a palette, and start experimenting with color mixtures. Make notes. Name your newfound colors. Develop fresh color combos. I keep a separate journal just for this purpose. This is also a good place to practice brushstrokes and brush handling.


5) Gather Ye Roses While Ye Wait:
There are times when health problems simply take over. Maybe you have to burn a lot of energy going to doctors' appointments and having tests or maybe you hurt too much to focus properly. Spend some time digging through your collage stash and just pin up anything that makes you go "Oooo!" Don't overthink this process; just relax and allow your brain to react. The inspiration board you create will be a useful tool later when you are able to be fully present in your studio: it will keep your inspirations front and center so they don't slip away while you are otherwise distracted.


6) Lose Yourself in a Word Salad:
One of my favorite "Want to Do Something but Don't Feel Like Anything" activities is clipping words from magazines. This process generates fuel for found word poetry and journal page titles while simultaneously pruning the stacks of paper products in the studio. While you're at it, clip images too and pin those up on your inspiration board! 


7) Become a Pattern Junkie:
This exercise comes from the delightfully playful Carla Sonheim and her book, Drawing and Painting Imaginary Creatures. Check your shelves because this might be one you bought a while ago and forgot about. Basically, over a series of three to five squares, you build patterns a step at a time. I like to have a bit of extra fun and name those patterns. This is a great way to practice layering different colors and materials. The resulting patterns could be used later to make your doodles extra interesting. (Think patterns for fur, skin, and clothing)


8) Craft Some Stash:
The very best way to develop your own unique style and "look" is to make sure your own hand is visible as much as possible. Each time you use a heavily-branded and recognizable product from another artist, you slip into the background of your own work a little bit. If you feel up to being in the studio but not quite ready to dive into an involved project, try spending time creating your own art supplies. Cut your own stencils. Carve stamps. Create your own personal collage sheets or even your own paintbrushes. These personalized tools will help your art stand on its own and be uniquely you.


9) For the Love of Swatching:
This activity is my number one, go-to task when I am uninspired and/or overwhelmed. I love just sitting with a pile of supplies, sorting and sampling them by color, making notes. It is incredibly calming and astoundingly useful. It also serves as a gentle reminder that I have A LOT OF STUFF and that I don't need more. Sometimes I end up with swatch pages that are out-of-date and need to be redone. Those old swatch sheets look great cut up and added onto journal pages or mixed media canvases.


10) Go in Search of Beauty, Sweet One:
Health issues (or really any stressful life event) can sap your creative energy as you necessarily withdraw from the studio to take care of business. As soon as you can, get back to the world, camera in hand, and go for a walk. The pictures you take can be reference images for future drawings and paintings. The vitamin D you absorb and the endorphins you generate will lift your spirits. The fresh air will clear your head. Look for great color combinations, cool textures and marks, strange people (who won't notice or care that they are getting their picture taken,) contrasting values, interesting compositions. Print and pin the photos on your inspiration board. Draw little thumbnails. See if you can recreate the patterns you discover. Carve a stamp based on an awesome mark you find. Try mixing up a batch of a color that made you swoon.

Know that everything you do - even if it seems small - to keep in touch with your inner artist during difficult times will help that artist resurface after the bad days pass and you are ready to begin again with the joyful business of art-making.

Monday, February 6, 2017

Soul Stories: Seeking Serenity

Sometimes, when you review old journals (especially if enough time has passed to provide the distance a fresh perspective requires,) you discover a thread of thought running through your words, a commonality betwixt the pages you didn't see before. 

In going back through my long-standing journal, "Soul Stories," I realized that I've written a lot about my quest for quiet moments in my life. Chronic health issues and all the requisite tests, appointments, and procedures make for an anxiety-filled life. There is a lingering feeling of being constantly unsettled, of problems going unsolved, of new problems yet to be revealed. In the midst of it all, I've journaled repeatedly about the search for serenity, about how to find small islands of contentment in a sea of unknowns.

In reading past journal entries, I discovered that I haven't quite found the key to calm. My life has certainly gotten much more complex in the ten years since I started "Soul Stories" so I suppose it isn't surprising that I continue to be anxious. However, I don't think I have been giving that issue the attention it needs; worrying has become such a day-to-day habit that I just accept it as normal. This journal has reminded me to actively seek inner calm and to make much more time for relaxation.

What do your past journals have to say to you?

Monday, January 30, 2017

Sometimes There's Only Time for a Snail

Sometimes all I have time for is a quick sketch. On another day, I'll start the watercoloring process and stop to let the initial layers dry. Somewhere down the line, I'll take another day to finish painting and maybe another to add shading in graphite. Working in this way, it has taken me nearly three years to approach the end of my "Sparks of Madness" sketchbook but I am there...just a few more pages and then it is onward to "Volume 2." Never trivialize even the smallest amount of time in your studio; it all adds up!

Saturday, January 28, 2017

Soul Stories: Tune In to Yourself

"Soul Stories" entry: June 2016
As I mentioned in my previous post, I'll be posting images from my journal "Soul Stories" over the next few weeks as I return to this journal project, an altered book journal that I began way back in 2007. If I have time, I'm going to try and go back through my archived posts to tag the "Soul Stories" posts from long ago. However, since I now have a much better camera, I'd like to revisit some old projects with a new, improved eye. If you are a longtime reader, you may see pictures of spreads that I've posted about in years past and I apologize in advance for the repetition. There have been a lot of new followers since I last posted about this journal so I suspect the pages of "Soul Stories" will be unfamiliar to most eyeballs currently visiting Lost Coast Post.

This is the lone page that I completed in this journal in all of 2016. I think I fully intended to do much more in "Soul Stories" at the time I did this page but then I was waylaid by all the other things I needed/wanted to do. Then again, maybe all I needed was this one entry. As is typical with most pages in this journal, I write quite a bit and then surround that with some art, mostly in the form of collage. One of the reasons I drifted away from "Soul Stories" is the fact that its pages are predominantly collage-focused, a medium I have deliberately tried to avoid in the last few years in order to develop my illustration skills and find my own unique visual voice. Collage still feels appropriate here since in this journal, the art is subordinate in importance to the thoughts I am trying to document.

Thursday, January 26, 2017

Returning to Soul Stories

"Soul Stories" title page
When I first started journaling (around 2003,) I wrote a lot and surrounded all that writing with a small amount of art. As the years progressed, I wrote less and did more art, ultimately arriving at journals that were almost completely visual with little to zero writing. I think maybe I just ran out of things to say and felt that the visuals (and the process of creating those visuals) said everything I wanted to communicate. However, those older journals are still on the shelf and the uncompleted ones are there, waiting patiently for my return.

One of my first journals is a large altered children's poetry book that I began in July 2007. It is named "Soul Stories." As with most of my ongoing, unfinished projects, I started off enthusiastically. I worked fairly regularly through the last half of 2007 and most of 2008, here and there in 2009, and then skipped 2010 and 2011 entirely. I returned in 2012 for four pages and then I abandoned the project again until June 2016 when I finished just one more page. This January, I felt the pull of "Soul Stories" again.

"Soul Stories" entry - Jan 15, 2017
"Soul Stories" is perhaps one of my most personal journals, a place I visit when I need to extensively document my thoughts, joys, fears, self-encouragement, discouragements, and triumphs. After my recent foot surgery, I needed to return to a verbose style of art journaling as my head felt painfully full of thoughts that needed to find their way onto the page. I'll continue on in "Soul Stories" as long as the words need to flow and then I'll tuck it away again.

Note:
In the last ten years, I have undoubtedly posted pictures of this journal's pages but I am too busy to go back through the archives and dig up links to those postings. So, as I post images from "Soul Stories" here and there, please forgive any repetition that you recognize. (If you have actually gone through ten years of Lost Coast Post posts, then go get yourself a cookie immediately and give yourself a pat on the back!) I'm sure many newer readers will be seeing these pages for the first time.

Monday, January 23, 2017

Looking Ahead

2017 is so far proving to be a strange time. In some ways, it feels as if the new year has gotten off to a snail's pace start. Recovering from surgery is a slow, tedious process with steps forward and then back, forward a little bit more then back again. At the same time, I feel like the month has slipped through my fingers. I'm not sure I have a whole lot to show for a month's worth of living save a narrowing hole in my foot (one of the incisions is taking its sweet time closing) and a calendar full of doctors' appointments. Still, I am trying to regroup and make the most of the next few months before the specter of more surgery looms again.

Each December, I typically make an exhaustive list of resolutions which I use actively throughout the new year. I love wish-listing my hopes and goals for the annual fresh start that January brings. This year however, I made a very simple "Do More of This/Do Less of This" list. As always, I have big plans; it's just that I didn't spend so much time detailing those plans for myself. I guess this lengthy blog post will serve that function.

Word of the Year:
I am continuing with "story" as my guiding word/theme/inspiration. In truth, I feel like I could continue onward with "story" for many years to come. I dipped my toes in "story" in 2016; I really want to dive deeper into story-crafting and illustrating in 2017.

Online/In Person Classes:
I did a bit of planning/thinking for my first ever online classes but again, my health challenges pushed some of that to the background. As I continue to heal, I am beginning to refocus my life on teaching, both in the classroom and hopefully online as well. In terms of online classes, I am most stymied by the video component that I want to do. In the end, I'm just going to do the best I can with what I know and have. As far as specifics, I can tell you that there is a trilogy of classes on the drawing board with monster creation as the central focus. I also want to return to teaching in person art classes to adults, something I stepped away from 11 years ago to teach kids in the school system. I'm not leaving the classroom but rather expanding my reach back into the adult artist audience.

Art for Sale:
Throughout the life of this blog (ten years now!) I have kept sales of my art in the background for many reasons. I don't ever want this space to feel like a carnival midway with me barking every other post about things I have for sale. The reality is, however, that I need to make a bit more from my art-making to compensate for increased health care costs and decreased work hours due to lengthy recoveries. I am planning to reopen my Etsy shop and/or offer more work for sale here at the blog. An online class (or two) will help bring in some income as well. I am toying with the idea of opening a Patreon account. Most money-making ideas are still in the planning stages as I have been so focused on my health in the past two months. 

Finish the Unfinished/Begin the Long Planned For:
I have projects that have been languishing in the "unfinished" pile for some time and I am going to decide whether those projects are still relevant/interesting and move them towards completion while discarding other ideas that have lost their gleam for me. In addition, I have a select few projects that have been on the back burner for years, ideas that I've actually done an incredible amount of groundwork on but that are not yet truly started due to my own insecurities. No time like the present to set aside fear and doubt and just jump in!

Take Better Care:
While this isn't strictly an art/blog-related topic, how well I care for myself physically, emotionally, and mentally directly impacts how often I am able to be present in this space and certainly determines how much art I get to do. Self-care has long been my Achilles heel; I am absolutely miserable at it. My body and brain are starting to rebel and if I don't make some real changes, there will be consequences that will complicate not only recovery from any necessary procedures but also daily living. It is time to eject old tapes and craft the life, internally & externally, that I have always dreamed of. It won't happen all at once - everything is a step-by-step process - but it certainly won't happen at all if I never begin.

Regarding This Space:
This is the first January in a while where I had zero doubts about continuing Lost Coast Post. Last year felt like a good blogging year to me and I am going to build on what I started in 2016: posting as regularly as possible, providing more informative content, cultivating more conversation and interaction. I am looking forward to being here and hope that you will join me, bringing your encouraging comments and thought-provoking questions. Together, let's carve an uplifting, creative path through 2017, no matter what trials and tribulations the year throws in our way!
 


Monday, January 16, 2017

A Belated Blog Beginning for 2017

As the calendar flipped from 2016 to 2017, I kept telling myself "I'll blog when I feel better" or "Once I turn the corner, I'll get back to posting." Well, I finally decided that I needed to jump back in regardless of health circumstances. I know that the longer I am away from something, the harder it is to return.

My foot surgery was December 13 and I am still battling my way through complications, both related and unrelated to the surgery. My slow recovery has involved some invasive and painful procedures that leave me drained and disheartened. I am still off work and minimally weight-bearing on my foot. Art has happened in very small, erratic bursts so I don't have too much to show for the last five weeks. Yesterday I had my first lengthy and focused art session in the studio since the surgery so hopefully that milestone heralds the coming of the "corner" I needed to turn. (And to think I might be going through this all over again in July...*sigh*)

While I haven't made a lot of art, I have done a great deal of thinking about art. I've watched many movies and shows that speak to my artistic sensibilities. I've read books about art and artists. I've visited artist websites and blogs. In between doctors' appointments, procedures, bandage changes, wound care, pain meds, and naps, I've tried to infuse my thoughts with beauty, color, and inspiration. I've been sowing creative seeds and I hope that when my body is ready, I'll be able to reap the bounty of projects that I've been nurturing in my brain.

Things get tough. That's the way life goes. After 12 surgeries, I know that I always go through a very physically difficult/emotionally fragile time that usually runs from right before I get stitches out to about three, four weeks after physical therapy starts. I cry a lot and get extremely frustrated with life in general and my less-than-healthy body in particular. However, I have hope that the main complication - an infected incision - is on the mend. I had my first post-op PT evaluation last week so I'd like to think that the hardest days are dwindling. I am very lucky that I have an incredible medical team that has been providing my care for years and who are familiar with the intricacies of my health challenges. From my primary care doctor to my surgeon, hospitalist, pharmacist, and physical therapist, I feel heard, cared for, and supported. I also have a wonderful boss and coworkers who stepped in to make sure I am not wanting for food or company. So it is just a matter of patience and time.

All in all, I thought I jump back into blogging even if I'm not quite back on my feet, even it is just to let you all know I haven't forgotten about you, dear readers, and that I am eager to get back to this space.

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